Untold story of actor Irrfan Khan by his friend & senior film journalist Ajay Brahmatmaj

Story of Irrfan Khan by his friend and senior Film Journalist Ajay Brahmatmaj

Irrfan not only wrote a letter to film journalist Ajay Brahmatmaj but also sent messages to him during his illness. Ajay Brahmatmaj shared two old photos of Irrfan Khan on Twitter and also shared an anecdote related to them.

Bollywood Actor Irrfan Khan

So far in my journey I was walking at a fast pace. I had my plans, aspirations, dreams and goals with me. I was getting absorbed in that suddenly TC tapped on the back, “Your station is coming, please get down.”

And I did not understand, “Naa na, my station has not arrived yet.”

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The answer was, “You have to get off at any of the next stops. Your destination has arrived. “

Irrfan said this in a letter to senior film journalist Ajay Brahmatmaj, when he came to know about his fucking illness, which is called cancer. On 29 April, Irrfan Khan finally got off the train. His station arrived. Train of life and station of death. It is cumbersome but it is like that. All clear and philosophical talks have been said about death, but regret that all are true in a very cruel way. I like a dialogue about the movie Bicycle Thieves about death,

Irrfan said, “Everything can be solved. Except death. ”  Irrfan Khan says one place in the letter above, “I am in pain.”

Irrfan adds,

“For the first time I realized the word ‘Azadi’, in the true sense! Realize an achievement… My belief in doing this work became completely true. After that I felt that that belief penetrated every cell of mine. Only time will tell whether he stays or not! That’s what I’m feeling right now. “

Irrfan Khan was in pain. He realized independence. And they became free. Sanjay Mishra said, he left one of the windows in Irrfan Hospital. Silently.

Irrfan started his career in 1988 with a very small role in Salaam Bombay. Earlier, he did many TV serials, including Chanakya, Bharat Ek Khoj, Chandrakanta, Sara Jahan Hamara.

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‘I would think habitually, what would have happened if but let go …’

The Lallantop spoke to Ajay Brahmatmaj to whom Irrfan wrote the letter. Irrfan Khan shared a lot with him apart from the letter. All stories, stories and personal thoughts. Ajay Brahmatmaj has seen Irrfan ever since he went to ‘Bombay’ from the National School of Drama (NSD). There are talks on his films, which will continue to happen but Ajay Brahmatmaj introduced us to Irrfan who had a storm in his mind. He moved closer to Irrfan’s political-social vision and life-philosophy.

A father concerned for children, a man obsessed with achievements, a person who had a big role to play in his wife, a man who departed from the world for unfulfilled desires. These are the things which are kept in the category of ‘personal’.

Ajay Brahmatmaj says,

This is a personal loss for me. I moved to China after passout from JNU. When he returned to Bombay from China, he met Irrfan. He used to stay in a room in DN Nagar. There was a kitchen in it. Common was the bathroom. I have seen Irrfan from there. I was associated with ‘Chanakya’ serial. Chanakya was his second serial. After ‘India is a discovery’. Then we met on the set. I always contacted him. During his time he was also critical of Irrfan.

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Name: Ajay Brahmatmaj

‘Irrfan joins film journalism’

‘What I remember about Irrfan and very few people know that Irrfan Khan connected me with film journalism. I used to do political reporting. The BJP was as strong as today. Then an editor refused to print my article. Obviously, there was a problem of work. Then Irrfan asked me to do film journalism. I was a bit uncomfortable. Then Irrfan said that let’s be good people. It was then that he decided my first interview.

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Ajay Brahmatmaj says,

Not always, but whenever we met we used to talk about films, about these general societies, about literature. I also used to go. They also used to come. They were not so famous then. Despite his many achievements, he was uninterested, with achievements. Kismet did not believe in anything and coincidence.

Little is known about one of his films. He had done Govind Nihalani’s film ‘Darshan’ with Dimple Kapadia and Shekhar Kapoor. The film ‘Death of a Doctor’ had just arrived. Tapan was doing Sinha’s films but was not satisfied with it.

“When Mahesh Bhatt asked him to do bad acting.”

Ajay tells some interesting things about Irrfan. They say

Irrfan Khan made his way into his style in his own terms. Irrfan did not copy anyone. We met when he was doing Mahesh Bhatt’s film Gunah. Then Mahesh Bhatt told him that bad acting has to be done here because he was working very hard even in the current shot.

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‘English used to do diction before film’

Ajay says,

Irrfan used to give a lot of emphasis on the choice and language of films. When doing foreign films, he used to do an empty dictionary course of two to three months to catch the English tone. Going abroad to catch that tone. Even if there are two dialogues to speak. A boy from a small place in Rajasthan was not working internationally, he had made his mark.

“A wish from Irrfan which remained unfulfilled.”

Irrfan had a big desire. Ajay says about this,

A wish that remained with him, he wanted to direct. He had this in his mind from the time of 1995-96. I used to have a video camera. Used to reach the set with my camera and make a frame by driving on my own. Used to shoot and show.

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Irrfan said after seeing the old picture – ‘Today I am happy in such a room.’

Ajay Brahmatmaj has shared many photos of Irrfan on Twitter, which he had taken. Ajay explains about one of these pictures,

It is a matter of London when he was in the hospital. Seeing the picture, Irrfan told me that I am in the same room as one by ten and am very happy. Live normally There are some books in the bag. For a time I felt that I could get more and more space. Now it seems that everything was fruitful. No need for it.

‘He used to abuse leaders, stay away from power’

Ajay says that he had sent an audio message of ten minutes from Cancer Hospital, I have not shared it with anyone till date. Irrfan expressed his pain. He also wrote a letter. Irrfan Khan realized the physical futility very fast. Cars continued to be purchased, but they were not interested in them personally. Used to be unhappy about society.

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Irrfan said after seeing the old picture – ‘Today I am happy in such a room.’

Ajay Brahmatmaj has shared many photos of Irrfan on Twitter, which he had taken. Ajay explains about one of these pictures,

It is a matter of London when he was in the hospital. Seeing the picture, Irrfan told me that I am in the same room as one by ten and am very happy. Live normally There are some books in the bag. For a time I felt that I could get more and more space. Now it seems that everything was fruitful. No need for it.

‘He used to abuse leaders, stay away from power’

Ajay says that he had sent an audio message of ten minutes from Cancer Hospital, I have not shared it with anyone till date. Irrfan expressed his pain. He also wrote a letter. Irrfan Khan realized the physical futility very fast. Cars continued to be purchased, but they were not interested in them personally. Used to be unhappy about society.

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He was very worried about raising children, what my children would be able to learn and do in this goth society. They do not have ‘experience of lack’ and do not experience lack, then you take a very wrong attitude towards society. Feelings of not having others, empathy not empathy. They used to say that this experience will not happen to my children. He wanted the children to be always on the ground. Irrfan never took the children forward.

‘Irrfan who coined it is his wife Sutpa’

Ajay gives his wife a big reason behind Irrfan’s personality building. They said,

In building all his personality, the woman who stood firmly behind the achievement is his wife Sutpa Sikdar. From the beginning, the girl has coined Irrfan alone since the days of NSD. Irrfan had a world-view but who is a sensible personality, gave this to Sutpa. She continued to run after illness. While both their children are at the threshold of youth and they most need the protection and guidance of their father.

Now they too have to struggle like Irrfan because they do not have any hand that can show their way by holding their finger.

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‘Irrfan Khan was not considered an actor other than Motilal’

Ajay Brahmatmaj says that Irrfan was a person of some reserve mood. 

Ajay say,

Irrfan has been a distinguished actor as an actor. In this, he prepared for himself the mix of both theater and Indian acting style – western acting style. Apart from Motilal, he did not consider anyone as an actor. In the contemporaries whom he used to play ideologically, he used to have a good deal with him.

‘When Irrfan gets entangled with the Filmfare’

Worked with a lot of people commercially. Even with those who were not friends. His social circle was not very big. Did not go to parties. Did not use gossiping. If someone praised, they used to get scared. He also fought many battles. Fought with ‘Filmfare’ about why my photo was not printed on the cover even though you have given me the Best Actor Award.

‘Irrfan also did a lot of crazy films but…’ Ajay says that all was not well in Irrfan’s career. They say

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Irrfan used to do meaningful films but he has also done many crazy films. Bad movies, for commercial success. But what is the identity of the artist? If you have to choose some of his films, at the age of Irrfan, at the age of just 53, you can retrospective dozens of films with what he achieved. When you go to choose the films of all the popular actors, then you will not have films to show, even though they are earning crores today.

When he heard about ‘Life of Pi’

Irrfan had silenced a question regarding the debates of commercial films. Ajay says

I remember once someone told him that films of all popular stars earn hundred crores, two hundred crores, then you don’t mind? Irrfan said that you guys do some research. Do you know how many crores of business life has done?

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Ajay says, that it was really surprising because the journalists of India did not know the meaning of ‘Life of Pi’ business. At that time, the film did a business of thousands of crores. There were such things but they were not too distracted that their films would not play. But ‘Madari’ was close to his heart. He was very worried about Madari’s success that it will happen. But it did not happen. In this he was expressing his inability, not the audience.

Irrfan in later days

Ajay recalls the later days, telling

When Irrfan was ill, I used to try to get him in a good mood. He would send a photo of some of his cheap film that he would have done, that these were also days. But they never got angry whether they remind you all. They also used to enjoy it. Talking on the phone I did not go to meet. My heart did not say that I should go only to show that I have come.

I was waiting to get well soon, we will meet again but that day has not come. Irrfan left all of us, Irrfan was less talked about than he was a great artist.

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Like another Actor, Irrfan did not get any big name or recognition. Whatever he achieved was found on the strength of his courage, determination and hard work. He was the real Kohinoor diamond of the Indian film industry. And the one we lost forever.

English Medium was the last film of Irrfan Khan’s career.